. I YI YI POPI [03 Jun 2005|05:16pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | On Fire ] So today i went to work. My neighbor has got this moving thing going on, so he kinda just hired me on to it. I got 65 today and probably 65 or 80 tomorrow. It was really really hard work, damn i hate rain. It was hot and muggy. But the biggest thing was the boxes. I moved 250 cardbord boxes and 75 topper ware boxes, off of the truck and into the house. Then we put a dryer and washer into the house. It was hard. But nothing could ahve been as bad as when i got home. So i tlaked to someone today and i new something was wrong. Then she said do u think its werid when we are together or is there something diff about it when we hang? I was like no but im gueesing form you asking you feel that was. So then she went into how i was the perfect guy but and i am what she has been looking for. ???????????????????????????????????????????????? Then whats the problem im wondering, she says, its from my past relationship, and it seems that everything is moving so fast. I dont know, we did only start hanging out a lil while ago, but we both felt something. Well i odnt kno, whats going on, i asked if she wanted to just be friends and she said no, so i told her I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT ELSE TO SAY OR DO, IF ITS NOT ME AND IM DOING EVERYTHING RIGHT, THEN WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO! ARGGG! I really want to be with you and hope that you feel the same way. Hope you figure things out, its relaly not fair, so just tell me if you do or dont. COME ON MON BEBE. 10wilted petals

. [02 Jun 2005|11:27am] [ mood | its early ] [ music | Daughters - Nurse, Would You Please Prep the Patient ] So its been along time since i've updated. Alot of things have changed to. It seems like everything that once was is not now. I cant complain thought, i am more happy then i have been in a while. But if you know me, still have a pyscho fam. But YOU KNOW! But things are good, the only thing is that alot of my friends graduated, so that sucks, but still its tight. Im going to get gauges. (poser right), i have wanted them for a while, so guess what, im getting them niga. I just got to figure out what size now, im think like a lil smaller ten half inch or something, i just got to take it slow. Well im going to to jamie today, at her dance prac. Hip Hop my fav (not really sorry). By the way, why does it seem that every girl hates Norma Jean, i mean new norma jean can Hold My D#$@. But old, it makes me HOTTTT.haha, well everyone \, there s a party at lake mirrior i heard sat night, bring it yo!!!!Holla back niggggggggggggggggggaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!! Peace! djfis gj jgnagajkngfkjarugnaiurn SHE SAID YES HOLLA! 1wilted petals

. well well well [24 Nov 2004|05:34pm] [ mood | hes a dick ] [ music | my american heart ] well someone got a hold of my password, not naming anyone but JARED, because hes the only one that new it and he put shit like have brittney i dont want her, ya ok, i dont know y u insist on fucking with me, you dont remember getting hit in the nose and bleeding there and out your mouth. give me a break, we were really good friends but now your a HUGE DICK! whatever fuck you. anyway things suck ass here at my new house with my new family, they are the biggest fucking dorks, all there kids are geeks god it sucks, i hate it o well. but things with me and you are really good, i feel awesome when im with you. <3 i love you alot. PEACE 9wilted petals

. [23 Oct 2004|07:01pm] [ mood | cutting NOT ] [ music | dicks rubbing ] kkjasdfkjhasdfkjasdfkjasdkjfasdkjfhlkasdhfkjalsdf;kjasdfkjaslkdjf;laskdjflkajsd;flkasd;fljsda;lkjas;dlkjflk;asjfdlkasjdflksadlfkjasldf 7wilted petals

. [24 Sep 2004|04:02pm] [ mood | iight ] [ music | underoath ] everything i think is straight now. HOLLA!!!! the church is hookin me up wit a family to live with. and me and brittney i think are back to normal. that is cool. man i really hate jacob he is such a duesch!!!! whatever i wish that brittney wasnt freinds with him. or soo friendly. whatever!(gay man slap)lol but i love kissing yoagain i love you bye<3 petals

. WOW EVERYTHING IS GREAT!!!!!!!!!!! [15 Sep 2004|06:34pm] NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HAVENT BEEN TO MY HOUSE IN 7 DAYS AND I HAVE BEEN JUMPING FROM HOUSE TO HOUSE FROM FRIENDS. I really hate everything that is going on. i have nothing anymore. the only thing that was keeping me up and broken me down.b\m. i wish that god had never put me through this. I dont know what else to say, people have lied and ruined the only good thing in my life. Being kicked out and not wanted sucks. i wish that i had you back. i love you more then anything. you were the only wally i had to lean on and the only cloud to float on. Love.................... love is still there coming from me, i wonder if it is in you. life will go on but as fast as my heart beats. i wonder if god planned ashitty life for me. I have no future, i wanted it to be in music but god hasnt blessed me yet. Audrey says she has a family lined up for me so thats ok i guess. i dont know what to do. To Myla love u guys thanks for being there for me. Taylor, jared,jordon,brian,tyler,braxton, and everyone that let me stay at there house i thank u. <\3 5wilted petals

. [03 Aug 2004|04:24pm] [ mood | aggravated ] [ music | LED ZEPPELIN ] O YEAH THANKS YOU SO MUCH KAYLA FOR CHANGING MY LJ YOU ROCK! 2wilted petals

. time flys when i think about you [03 Aug 2004|04:10am] tomorrow is going to be good. i get contacts in the morning and then i go to the school to get this schedule fixed. then to holy grounds and the best thing BRITTNEY GETS OFF RESTRICTION! I think she going to church i hope. I miss you so much boo. and love u. cant wait peace CALL ME TOMORROW AND WAKE ME UP I DONT CARE WHAT TIME!!!!!!!!!!!! petals

. just woke up [30 Jul 2004|01:26am] [ mood | horny ] [ music | my guitar ] yesterday rocked, logan, kayla, cydney, megan aka. slapper,lol, and shelby. but i got supa dupa burned. THAT SUX! But i had fun. but when we were in the lazy river megan had on this yellow braclet for like cancer awarrness and these other two guys had some on and megan said hey we have the same braclet on he said hahahahahaNO. AND SID SOMETHING TO CYDNEY, andi said hey dont talk to them that way and he said what do u wanna do, the kid looked like he was from brooklyn so iwas kinda scared but i got in his fae and he pushed me so i pushed him back and right when i was about to punch him shelby got my arm and pulled me and megan stood up hahahah and that guy got so scared. shes like 6'0 and hes like a lil taller than me. holy crap it was funny. i got your letter brittney and i love you and i will try my HARDEST TO NEVER EVER HURT YOU AGAIN. i cant wait to see you sunday. you mean so much for me and dont want to hurt you. please leave a comment and tell me your schedule ok. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!! Blake 3wilted petals

. [28 Jul 2004|12:24pm] Brittney i wanted to go see you at the marching thing because jim invited me but then i heard you were mad at me and i thought about it and i thought that it probably wasnt a good idea. i am so sorry and i hope you can forgive me. tell me what i can do there is another enrtrie below this read it. i couldnt sleep i was thinking about you and how much i messed up and that i hope you still wanna be with me. i love you. hope you had an ok day. love always Blake my schedule is=chemistry 1 honors,geometrey 1 honors,leadership,pottery ten second semester is pottery english 2 honors, world history, and cooking petals

. [28 Jul 2004|12:32am] brittney i love you sooooooo much. everything is a complete mess right now. i only told jim about the 1st K and about the flash thing it was a joke between me and logan. about like how i was trying to make him mad by saying that i saw kaylas boobs and then he said well i sw brittneys bobs and i sai me too and it was all a joke. i am sorry for what i did i would never want to hurt you i cae about you way to much. i cant wait to see you. i hope this clears everything up PLEAZ TRUST ME!i didnt know this was going to happen by telling jim, the boob thing was noting it was just a joke. but the jim thing was bad im sorry. here is part of the song i wrote you whenever i see your face, it puts me in a better place and everytime i look in your eyes i get hypnotized thats all im going to tell you i am soooooooooooooo sorry i hope this doesnt effect me and you i love you! Blake petals

. [01 Jul 2004|07:18pm] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | MY GUITAR ] its been a while sice ive been writting in this. bu some things have been goig on. yesterday i went to brittney''s house. it was cool we hung out and then went to lake morton... and yes..... we had a picnic. lol. it was really cool tho. i had alot of fun. and today i wemt with her and my church to the nursing home and it was cool. but then we went to the bowling alley. and something happend, i reallly couldnt stop lookingin her eyes. and we kissed for the first time, it was cool. i could tell she was happy.things are good.. garrett wrecked his motorcycle and got some reallly bad road rash hopefully we can do something for the 4th. i think that we ar gonna buy some really bad fireworks in tampa. oshit son. that sux!!!!!!!!!!!!!! shizzle i gots to go PEACE! petals

. [10 Jun 2004|03:42am] last night was interesting. someone who i really used to cared about just told me how she felt. i dont know what i think. on one hand i really like this girl. but then on another hand im over this. but i dont know. i just dont want her to be mad at all. or sad. i hope you had a great day. went to travis's and garretts, can you say WOW! but then their mom came home and started bitching and made me go home. tonight was supposed to be all about dashboard. but now 2 people i really didnt want see are going. angela all of a sudden invited her self. and then her friend samantha also invited her self. o well im going to write somethings on my guitar. 2wilted petals

. i guess things are over [25 May 2004|10:14am] [ mood | confused ] [ music | emo sad music ] i dont know, staurday was wierd! in a bad way! taylor was really crazy acting. she told me she made out with a guy named ernie, what kinda name is that? l0l anyway. i hope she had fun becaue i think things are over i dont, i wish it wasnt. but ill let her decide. FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! me and garrett and brandon all ent to evolution. then on the way home we had to walk to heathers house to get a ride to the crib. but we stopped at the intersection before she picked us up and there was this metal box on the poll that was unlocked. i opened it and it said on off. i turned it to off and alll the street lights went out. damn that was funny we ran to heathers house./ that was scary as shit. but i dont know whats going to happen with me and taylor. 2wilted petals

. damn what the fuck did i just do [18 May 2004|07:33pm] I just told told taylor to much shit. FUCK I WISH I COULDGO BACK AND NOT SAY IT! she is pretty much the only girl i ever really had feelings for not just thinking someones hott. but no things are going to be wierd so i suck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! today sucked all i could thinkabout was taylor telling me that she halso had feelings for another guy but i really dont care anymore. i just ant to let things happn. i fucing never called anyone like i call her. im going to stop because its getting to be like shes goin to get sick of me . WTF is going on y mind id racing like a mile a minute but o well. FUCK SHIT SUCK A BIR SHIT ASSSSSSSS! OK THERE. FUCK,. whatever. i gots to go! 5wilted petals

. Holla back biotch [17 May 2004|01:21pm] this weekend was pretty nice. i was at this church "party" friday then spent the night at the college. it was the first night i acually got to chill and hang with taylor. She wasnt feeling good that night so we just layed on the couch. My friend logan was making out with his girlfriend. and he was egging me on to do it with taylor so i kinda wanted to but i thought i would let her choose when and i think she wanted to just let it happen when happens. she was all worried that i wasnt having fun but there was no way i couldnt just chilling out with her. when it was time to go to bed i snuck out to meet her at her dorm but she was asleep i really wanted to go in but she didnt feel good so i thought i would let her rest. but satuday night was intersting. i went to a show. like as you wish and inception where fucking awesome. but saint (something) blew ass. but anyway my ex-girlfird was there and she tried to kiss me but then something wierd happening i pushed her away and i told her i had a girlfriend(which is kinda true) and she slapped me so that was a great ending to that night. then me and my grandma got in a fight. o well. boo i hope you had a good timew in orlando being gangsta and rolling with your glock petals

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